| The Tribute |
[Oct. 3rd, 2004|11:03 pm] |
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Greetings brothas and sistas, I greet you in the name of our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. As you can see, module with the brothas of Megiste Arete has really taken an effect. Two more weeks of modulation, one more week of morning bible study and one week to discuss the book, Maximized Manhood by Edwin L. Cole. I look forward to the last two weeks. Very soon y'all cats will see me in the MA apparrel, be ready. I want to send a salute to my big bro in Iraq. I love you big dog!!! I miss you and you're in my prayers. I have been wearing my brother's gold chain a lot lately, that's because I really been thinking of him. Having a brother in Iraq, makes me watch this presidential election very closely. This is aside from the fact that this is the first presidential election in which I'll be allowed to vote. Kerry touched me the most during last week's presidential debates. My pastor, Bishop Gwin always says, "be a Godcrat, not a republican, not a democrat, but a Godcrat." Well B.G., I'm doin my best to do so. Which candidate aligns up more with the plans of God? I will try to answer this question before November 2nd. If I voted today, Kerry would have my vote. I don't want to be drafted into the military!!! If they start drafting cats, I am going to move to Africa. Yes sir!!! The young lady who I've been speaking of in recent journal entries, she's definitely the business. Shout outs to you ma'am. However, I realized that right now, my relationship with the Lord is most important. Thus, my focus is on serving God's kingdom from here out. She does not like me and I need to face that. So I throw two fingers up to the dating scene. I'm goin back to sit and rock in my chair on my deck at my dating retirement "house". I am going to sip lemonade and soak up the "Son". Lord Jesus shine your grace and mercy upon your child. Dearly beloved, we need the grace and mercy of God like never before. I have finally realized that I, like many christians, have been to complacent in my discipleship with Jesus. Yeah, I've lived a fairly good walk with Christ, I haven't gotten into too many pitfalls. However, fairly good is not the goal. Our goal has to be perfection. It may not be obtainable on this Earth, but we have to work towards it. I must stop thinking that because I'm a saint in comparison to most people in the world that that makes me good with God. I must perfect myself in holiness out of reverence for God. I hope that my friends will join me in the struggle to be the best we can be. Let's not just settle for good people. Keep moving!!! Salute generals... |
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| Purple Heart |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|12:01 am] |
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The first week of modulation with the brothers of Megiste Arete turned out to be an enriching experience. One down and four to go! I can't imagine what God has in store for me and the men in my "flight". God has matured me spiritually in such a short time span. I am truly grateful for his spirit and his love taking charge of my life. In just one week, I've realized that I have purple across my heart. I am destined to be a member of this organization. This brotherhood and I fit like peanut butter and jelly. I got purple blood running through my veins. On a more sad, realistic note, my heart was also purple for another reason this week. My heart was bruised with a horrible abrasion this week. I found myself very saddened and dissappointed in the behavior of a few young ladies. I hold these ladies in such high esteem and I wish that they would not play themselves. Nonetheless, I think that they do. These ladies have great potential and they refuse to embrace it. Rather, they choose to conform to the "world" and not strive for perfection of mind, body, soul, and life. It really hurt me. Nothing hurts like the feeling of rejection or the feeling of supressing really strong feelings. One of these young ladies has really captured me. And no not Heidi!!! Everytime I speak of a young lady, everyone thinks it's Heidi. Though I might hold Heidi in the highest level of admiration, I want her to do her thing. I am not in anyway pursuing Heidi. There's this other young lady who has peaked my interest. Very fine with a body that growls. As usual, this young lady is not really within my reach. I've decided to ignore my feelings in order to prevent my inevitable rejection. Further, it really hurts to do so. Everytime I see her, I go crazy. I really wish that she would like me back but more importantly, I want God's will to be done. I knew I really had it bad for the girl when I seen her talking with a group of guys. I was really angry and really jealous. These are emotions of the weak though. I pray God will keep my focus on Him and that I might be able to cope better in regard's to her and I's relationship. Last week was really busy and this week promises to be much of the same. I know it seems that my life revolves around God, Megiste, and girls, but there's much more to my world than that. In the days to come, I hope to share more thoughts on other topics. Stay Tuned! |
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| Megiste Arete |
[Sep. 9th, 2004|12:54 am] |
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Salute, Salute, It's the General Bryan C. Today begins the road to becoming apart of the wonderful, allustrious fraternity Megiste Arete. Megiste Arete is a christian, social fraternity. We are not greek, we are not divine nine. However, Megiste does big things. God has really blessed the men of this organization and I see us having a large impact on U of I's campus. Yesterday, I went through the interviewing protocol that Megiste National asks that all members go through. I enjoyed the process quite thoroughly. I am very happy and excited to be going through the modulation process with 4 ill brothas. On line this semester for Megiste is myself (the Infamous Killah Bee), my man Jason, Issac, Charles, and Mike. We are five men of God who have been called to do great things. I really can't wait. Modulation begins on Monday, Sept. 13th. Classes are goin really hot right now. I can't complain about academics. My older brother, Brace, leaves for Iraq tomorrow. I am really sad to have this happen, however, I know God has a plan for my brother. So in the end, we will have victory. Besides all of this, something has really been bothering my spirit. This something is my intense desire for a significant other. I'm supposedly "retired" from the social/dating world. Nonetheless, there are some fine young ladies on U of I's campus. I can never shake off the crush I have on this young lady named Heidi. I think she is really incredible and I always dream about being with her. Then, there's this other girl named Jessica. I don't know her too well, but something about her makes me really dig her. I've been thinking about her more than the average person a lot lately. Right now, it's just physical attraction. Then check, I was working tonight in my dorm's dining hall, and this super fine friend of mine named Vanessa comes in. I ain't seen this girl all year but I tell you, when she came in. Dear Lord!!! I wanted to throw her against a wall, slob her down, then beast her on a table. I'm sorry but it's real. She's puerto rican too, and I love puerto rican women. Yeah, I have always been a little excessive when it comes to girls. But that's my personality. I just continue to live according to what God would have me to do. I want to be led by the spirit. Pray for me because it's a constant battle, but I know I'm more than a conqueror through Jesus Christ. Everything is Everything y'all. Holla at the kid. PEACE. |
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| First Entry |
[Sep. 8th, 2004|04:04 pm] |
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Today, like everyday is a blessing. The Lord woke me up with the functioning of my limbs and strength in my body. The start of this journal is long overdue. I've been wanting to chronicle my days for some time now. Shouts out to the Blazin Asian for puttin me on to this live journal thing. I plan to use this journal to keep all Establishment & Committee members up-to-date on what's really good in the world of Bryan. It's real official y'all, we blastin off on this thing here. As I continue to live the Purpose Driven Life, you can walk with me along the way, no matter where you are. I encourage you to laugh and cry with me. Feel my joy, feel my pain. NOPE!!! Just funnin' y'all, it ain't that serious but I will definitely let cats into what's goin on inside myself. I want to be transparent before the world. So that through my weakness, the Lord will be glorified and be strong. PEACE. |
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